I went to move on to Step 6, but something didn't quite feel settled yet. I think I need to open up and read my inventory to someone in it's entirety still, for my Step 5. That's why I haven't posted again in a while. I guess I'm feeling sorta stuck. Because I don't know who to read my inventory to. It's not a decision to be made lightly.
I do want to say that I feel so much better after completing what I have completed. I feel like I've redefined myself. I always used to define myself by my problems or weaknesses and after taking these steps, I have to consciously let go of that definition of myself. It is no longer my problem because I have given it to the Lord. So am I an addict anymore? No, I don't think I am.
Of course, it wouldn't be right to assume I can ignore the past completely. I do need to be careful to avoid temptations and continue to do what is right when I'm faced with temptations. Because the temptations still come! But I no longer need to define myself as someone who struggles all the time. I need to redefine who I am in order to get rid of it completely.
I am no longer that person.
I think that's what Step 6 is actually about, so maybe that's where I'm headed after all. My next post should be on that step.
How are my readers doing? Anyone working the steps? Feel free to comment. You can comment under a profile or just anonymously. I'd love to hear from you.